It has truly been a blessing to me.
See, being an expat wife, especially a new one like me, can be very stressing.
I remember the first few months here....
I had never lived any farther that and hour and 45 minutes from my hometown.
I had never flown.
I was homeschooling a very active and strong willed child.
I left a very close-knit extended family.
I was active in the children's and youth ministry of our church and had close friends in this family of faith.
I knew only one language, English. And, I had a bad southern drawl, at that!
As you can imagine, I was not your typical expat wife. My children were to typical either.
I often asked God why in the world He would send me here to this compound, this city, this country.
Many times, through tears and anger, I told God that I just wanted to go home.
During the summer, I did go home. And things were different. We lived out of a suitcase while staying with family in two different states for five weeks. Life went on even though we were gone. And, I felt homesick in my heart for Korea.
God showed me that even though I was not perfect, classy, poised, or what I thought was the perfect expat wife, that He needed me in Korea. I have seen small ways He is using me...but I know there are many other ways He will show me.
Even though my children are not perfect, that He is working in and through them.
I have learned that I have to find ways to control my emotions, my frustrations, loneliness, and anger. He can turn all that into, joy, peace, fullfillment, and purpose.
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